Prayer

I've been wanting to share this prayer that I had written since the Uprising (DNow) weekend with Matt Papa:

Dear God,

It is my desire to follow you. I desire to deny myself completely and to take up my cross daily and follow you. It is not my deepest desire and I pray that you will help that to become my deepest desire. You have done so much with me in mind. I only am aware of a fraction of what You have done and what You do and my response is weak at best. Forgive me for the way I have responded to You in this lukewarm manor, when I have responded at all. Forgive me for so much that I do with myself in mind and not You and Your desires. Although it is a battle I give into more often than not, I pray You will bring me victory in this battle over my selfish wants and self-centered actions. I pray to love You with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength, and all of my mind. I pray that You fill me with the desire to seek Your kingdom first because You only are worthy and not out of wanting all to be given to me as a result. I give up my hopes, my dreams, my plans, and my life to You, my Creator, my Sustainer, my Savior, the love of my soul, the only source of peace, strength and life, my only true Hope. Amen.